The Untold Truth Of Nicole Kidman

Most actors start young, whether it's in commercials (because they're just that cute), or throwing fits on soap operas. Kidman's first onscreen role was a bit different. Her first starring role in a project was in a 1983 film called Bush Christmas. As the title suggests, it's a festive film set in, of all places, the Australian bush. The plot centers on a close-knit outback family who are facing foreclosure on their beloved farm. Banking all their hopes on their prized horse winning an upcoming race, they're distraught to learn he's been stolen and band together to save the day, and Christmas. 

In an interview with W magazine, Kidman explained that the flick shot out in the bush in Queensland, in the middle of nowhere. The actress is most proud of eating "witchetty grubs," which are essentially white worms that live in the earth, as part of her role as the daughter, Helen. 

Kidman's fearlessness came from a rather unlikely place. Her desire to throw herself headfirst into her work, regardless of whether the part calls for her to play dead for a waiting husband (as in The Killing Of A Sacred Deer) or to urinate on co-star Zac Efron (as in The Paperboy), the actress credits to her mother. She told Vogue in a career-spanning, tell-all interview that her mother's consistent challenging of conformity at every turn informed the person Kidman grew up to be. 

The actress' mother taught nursing and edited her husband's books, in a time when, as the actress acknowledges, women were told to get married, settle down, and that was that. Although the young Kidman sometimes found herself wanting a maternal figure who coddled her, she can now appreciate how her mother challenged not only herself, but her daughter, too, to be the best person she could possibly be. "She was determined to push us [out of that conformity]," she told Vogue.

There was actually talk of Kidman and Watts starring together in TV mega-hit Big Little Lies, as Watts told The Guardian back in July 2017. The two discussed doing the show together, but unfortunately their schedules didn't line up. In the end, Watts, like everyone else on the planet, devoured the show from the comfort of her couch. But it's worth noting that it would never have existed in the first place without Kidman's considerable influence.

She and Reese Witherspoon both co-produced (via their production companies) and co-starred in the series. The duo managed to get it made just two and a half years after it was initially conceived — record time in Hollywood. Witherspoon encouraged Kidman to read the novel on which it's based and then, through pure serendipity, the Aussie actress chased down the author and convinced her. They found the right director (Jean-Marc Vallee), the right co-stars (Shailene Woodley and Laura Dern), and the right network (HBO) all through tireless effort and, quite literally, making endless phone-calls. 

Len Amato, president of HBO Films, enthused about their approach to the New York Times. "It's very unusual when you have a megastar who's also a producer sitting around the table doing their homework. It's meaningful when it comes from people who found the project, who put all the elements together and who are also going to put themselves on the line as actors," he said.

The Aussie actress' support for women doesn't begin and end with Hollywood, either. Her Golden Globes speech was a call to arms, but it shouldn't surprise anyone to learn that Kidman has been a UN Women Goodwill Ambassador since 2006. Unlike her contemporaries, such as Angelina Jolie, who choose to do their charity work in the public eye, Kidman is content to quietly make a difference behind the scenes. She approaches this work in much the same manner she does her career and personal life.

Kidman was appointed in January 2006. Her role involves raising awareness on the infringement of women's rights worldwide. Her spotlight is on violence against women (something she's spoken out about in relation to playing Celeste on Big Little Lies, too). As UN Women Goodwill Ambassador, Kidman has traversed the globe, raised vital funds, and lent her voice and celebrity to the cause. "I have seen that there is no limit to what women can achieve when given the opportunity. Working with UN Women, I have met women who had to overcome enormous obstacles, yet who went on to help others and organize to achieve social change. To me, these women embody resilience, strength, dignity — and hope," Kidman said in relation to the role.

It seems doing what scares her the most, then confronting and understanding those fears, is perhaps what drives Kidman's tenacity both as an actor and in her life in general. Theater, a first love for her, was something she dabbled in midway through her contentious first marriage to Tom Cruise. Making her West End debut in David Hare's The Blue Room, Kidman received an Evening Standard Award and widespread acclaim for her performance. 

But 17 years later, when it came time to return to the London stage for Photograph 51, she found herself crippled with fear. "I was standing in the wings, feeling like my heart was going to jump out of my chest. My mouth was so dry I'd drink about two bottles of water during the show," she told the Evening Standard in the UK. 

The reviews, once again, were great. And Kidman was in an interesting position as, almost 20 years after her London debut, the play actually needed her celebrity to get made. She felt a connection to the material, having grown up visiting her father, a biochemist's, laboratories. The play concerns DNA pioneer Rosalind Franklin, with Kidman noting how she "felt her [Rosalind's] presence every night and was so glad to be able to be the conduit for her to be recognised."

Although Kidman is fearless when it comes to eating cockroaches and jumping out of planes (by her own admission), her red carpet appearances are usually without too much fuss. Kidman isn't necessarily a safe red carpet choice, but she's not going to turn up in a meat dress or with one breast exposed any time soon. In fact, the actress sees fashion as yet another form of self-expression.

In an interview with InStyle, she gushed about how there are "dreams attached to fashion." Unsurprisingly, Kidman sees what she wears as another extension of who she is, and who she wants to present to the world. 

"It allows me to express what I'm feeling, as in, I want to wear that because that's actually my rebellion right now. Or that's my way of fitting in. Or it's my way of saying no. Or it's my way of saying I'm different," she explained. Kidman credits her mother and grandmother with giving her a love of dressing up. She also revealed that donating her Balenciaga wedding dress to an Aussie exhibit called "Love" was itself an act of love. "I'll support anything that supports love. Truly. Isn't it the essence of everything?"