Meghan Markle Makes Heart-Wrenching Admission About Suicidal Thoughts

Of the many revelations Meghan Markle has made during her "no-holds-barred" interview with Oprah Winfrey, few are turning heads like the admission that her time as a royal was so "unsurvivable" that she admitted to thoughts of suicide. She told Oprah that "she didn't see a solution" and that "I was ashamed to say it at the time ... I just didn't want to be alive any more. And that was a very real and clear and frightening and constant thought ...and I remember how he just cradled me" (via The Guardian). 

She also recalls how she didn't want to go to an event but eventually gave in and attended, because she was worried about being left alone, for the sake of her mental health. While she and Harry were doing their job, she said "every time the lights went down in the royal box I was weeping." She adds: "It takes so much courage to admit that you need help. It took so much courage to voice that. I didn't want to put more weight on my husband's shoulders. He's already carrying the weight of the world" (via The Sydney Morning Herald).

Harry: I was not ready for the British press attack on Meghan

For his part, Prince Harry said he was not ready for the way the U.K. press would attack Meghan, and he admitted that he couldn't talk to anyone about the status of her mental health. "It's a very trapping environment that a lot of them are stuck in," he said. "I didn't have anyone to turn to. We've got some very close friends who have been with us through this whole ... but the family very much has the mentality of 'this is how it has to be' ... 'we've all been through it'" (via the Sydney Morning Herald). 

Harry's admission that he and Meghan were both struggling, explains the hostility he displayed against the royal press pack during the couple's tour of South Africa in 2019. Back then, he had said that he was worried that "history would repeat itself" because "I've seen what happens when someone I love is commoditized to the point that they are no longer treated or seen as a real person. I lost my mother and now I watch my wife falling victim to the same powerful forces" (via The Associated Press).

Meghan's account of palace life echoes stories told by Princess Diana and Fergie, Duchess of York

Meghan Markle's admission that she had felt isolated enough to end her life echoes those made by her late mother-in-law Diana, Princess of Wales, who, in the book Diana: Her True Story by Andrew Morton, was said to have tried to throw herself down the stairs and cut herself with a razor, knife, and lemon slicer. At the time, Buckingham Palace had said, "We are not prepared to say how he is reacting or how she is reacting. It is not for us to keep a circulation war going with comments one way or another, because that is what it is all about" (via The Los Angeles Times). After Diana died, Morton confirmed that she had worked with him to write the book (via the Belfast Telegraph).

It also echoes comments made by her former aunt-in-law, Sarah Ferguson, who also told Oprah in 1996, "You didn't marry the fairytale, you married a man," adding, "You fell in love and married a man, and then you have to come to terms with the fairytale. Now it's not a fairy tale, it's real life — well, they think it's real life over there" (via The Sydney Morning Herald).

If you or anyone you know is having suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline​ at​ 1-800-273-TALK (8255)​.